anyone who really really knows me, knows that for my entire life I have always had very vivid intense dreams. I'm sure Emily can't even count how many times I came downstairs in the morning with "you will NEVER believe the dream I had last night..."
My dreams are like movies- usually with a beginning, middle and end. They feel like they last forever. They are creative and crazy and weird and wonderful and sometimes scary-- but not usually scary. I've been able to fly so many times I've lost count. Often they are so real that after a few days, I can't remember if something really happened or only happened in a dream. I've actually been pissed off at people for something they did in a dream (much to their annoyance). I've been tempted to keep a dream journal-- but I'm scared to do that. In most of my dreams I exhibit some level of control- where eventually I figure out that I'm dreaming- or, say that in the dream I'm in some embarrassing situation, I know that it is just a dream and I can get myself out of it.
When I was really little, I used to have a recurring dream that I was in the back seat of my parent's car and they left me in the car with it running while they ran into the gas station real quick. As soon as they stepped inside the gas station, the car would start to move and drive off with me in it- and with no one driving. Little 5 year old me would be terrified because I had no idea where the car was taking me or how to drive. I had this dream so often that whenever my parents really would pull into a gas station (in real life), I'd FREAK out and demand I get out of the car too (not like they'd ever really leave me in the car- but whatever, I was 5!!).
I don't mind having vivid dreams or really intense dreams- but what I do mind is that sometime even after I wake up, I can't shake the emotions that I had in the dream. For example (and yes you may laugh), the other night I had a dream that a certain musician and I were in a complex relationship. We were in love, he was an amazing kisser, girls were way jealous of me, etc etc. I'm not going to go into super detail- but when I finally woke up from the wonderful dream, I felt weird.
I'm going to have a difficult time explaining how I felt when I woke up so bear with me. I felt almost sad/lonely and a bit heartbroken that all those feelings I had during the dream weren't real. and then I felt guilty for dreaming that I was lusting after someone else while Jeff was sleeping next to me. And then i felt silly because it was JUST a dream! but all that day, I had the most difficult time shaking those emotions from the dream (dream hangover?) and even couldn't listen to said musician's music because it made me feel all odd and uncomfortable.
Yep, I know I'm a huge freak- but what the hell! It isn't just this sexy musician dream- but why do these emotions linger and last SO long after I've woken up? Does this happen to anyone else? It is so annoying that I can't shake emotions that aren't even a result of real events. If this happens to you too, what do you do to shake the feelings? And, am I a bonafide nutter?
ps: I had every intention of writing this as a humorous post and clearly failed- oops poops!